NEW CHAPTER

 hi. im experiencing new chapter in life

just graduated from "marriage" chapter, and now im advancing to yet another new chapter

"being pregnant" chapter. i never thought i would experience this chapter. i know its normal, like, as a woman, but still, it is still a very out of this world experience to me. haha

if people ask me, am i ready to be a mother? well, definitely naaaaaaaaaaaah

but i am thankful for this rezeki. my husband is very excited. 

just going to jot down the experience, month by month. before i forgot about it.

so the first month, its 2 April 2020, my period is late, and i took the test, theres TWO line

 

its a mix of happy and confused and wuuuttt moment for me,

i am 6 weeks pregnant at that time. we went to clinic and carry out the scan to ensure that i am really am pregnant

and yup, there it is :')

i dont really feel pregnant at this stage. 

Thank god my morning sickness is not so bad, i just vomit like twice. and i am really thankful that my early first trimester was fully at my house in Kelantan due to PKP, with my parent and husband.

My buku pink masa baby and my baby buku pink :p

 

i lost 3kgs during  my first trimester, due to loosing some appetite, and cuz i dont want to vomit, so i avoid eating, cuz eating=vomiting, hahah

in May i have to get back to work, 

im almost 3 months pregnant, so its quite okay, still dont feel that pregnant haha, and nobody really know that i am pregnant.

3 months

The biggest challenge for me at time is, food

u know i love my food rawwww

sushi, red meat, half cooked seafood

and when you're pregnant, u cannot eat raw food, so it really is a challenge to me, like, das literally my whole diet, what i eat everyday T^T

so i did my best to avoid it, i still eat sushi, but i choose the cooked one, which is sooo boring sobs

avocado is good for the baby, and me :3

                                       

went to Klinik Kesihatan for my monthly check-up,

i dont know theres so many needles involved when u're pregnant tsk, i hate needles :(

and my HB is quite low, so more blood sample needed ughh such a nightmare, 

every time i went for a checkup, i will be reminded of how big a mother's sacrifice is. SO BIG! my children better be thankful to me.

during 5 months of pregnancy, i started to feel some movement, my bump is still not that big,

people still dont know that i am pregnant, haha

showing off my 5 months baby bump

 now that i start to feel the kicks and turn from my baby, i feel more pregnant

i also went for the detailed scan, with my husband, before he flew back to Istanbul,

Alhamdulillah, the baby is healthy :')

look at that precious lil beannnnn,

i love him so much, yes, its a him!

i love him soooo much. i havent met him, but i already love him soooooooooooo much its crazy.

i never thought i would have this feeling. because when i first knew that i am pregnant, to be honest, i am happy, but at the same time i am afraid.

like, theres a wholeee lot of possibilities, and when u have anxiety, u tend to over think, for the worst possible scenarios. so its not that fun. anxiety and pregnancy is really is a very bad combo. when pregnant it is always advisable to have happy thought, always be positive, dont stress. but, das not possible for meeee. but alhamdulillah, so far so goodddd. i still have a lot on my mind, but knowing my baby is healthy has been the greatest news for me. 

and now i am 6 months pregnant! 

half way to go

please pray for meeeeee and the babyyy <3

 

please be healthy, bb, mommy cant wait to meet you. keep kickinggg!