reminders

 "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower.

well thanks . once in a while i need some reminders. a wake up call for what the reason i am breathing and alive now. thanks Allah for all the people in my live. no matter what he/she had gave to me, good or bad. high or low. better or worst. 

every person that had come into our life is a treasure. we can learn one or two things from each of them.

Never blame anyone in your life.

Good people give you happiness.

Bad people give you experience.

Worst people give you a lesson

& best people give you memories.

well, cheers :)

futurama

so its 2013

i'm 20

hahahaha

well, i'm getting old. who doesn't ?

getting old makes me think of one of the things that everybody are afraid of

FUTURE

well don't bluff

everybody,every each of us is afraid of the uncertainty in it

whats waiting for us ? what will happen to us?

its like that question that almost all  motivators asked us when in high school .

" where do you see your self in the next 5 or 10 years ? "

well, i don't see me nowhere 

hahaha

yes, i cant imagine or even dream where i will be in the next 5 years or 10 years

i cant even imagine what will i do tomorrow , so yeah -.- 

well i do. i have a dream. or had a dream.

dead dream. 

as dead as me. 

aaaa im so negative. 

but i believe God had set the best story for me.

since before i can even count. every time after solat. i always make the same doa until now.

"Ya Allah Berikanlah aku yang terbaik di dunia dan akhirat"

and that i believe. 

shatters

it just so hard to get over things that u had used to

it hurts so bad

but somehow it is a prove

that i still have a soul

i want to write a long post actually

i just very am lazy 

but hey dont ever lost hope

the sky is the limit ;D

sigh

i have to be honest

i am kinda tired

letih . penat . dan sewaktu dengan nya

just please .

give me a reason to continue this

or yeah. just stop it.

Sick

Theres a hell lot of thing that ive done and doing that im not proud. I feel sick just by thinking of it.
Humm. The forces both are still strong,the better choice is clear,but im not. Keep fighting, the war is going to end. Someday.
Someday.
Definitely.

new

new . yet the same.

change . only in numbers .

lets go towards the new and change us . together .
may Allah ease our journey .

conflicts

well.

so many things to say . but sometimes it cant be put in words.
if i try. maybe i wont do justice to what i feel .

i actually had written several paragraphs on this post. and i deleted it . yes. because maybe , sometimes keeping things to your self is better.

especially your opinion maryam, sometimes its over rated to others -.- ahh, im sorry. and thanks to those who keep listening to my nonsense and still be there for more :') ahhh. im touched .

and i missed ema and mirah . so many things to tell :'( imdyinginside

:'(

u know what , its not that u didnt come that makes me feel sooooo sad.
its because im expecting u to come