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Ive slept early last night. And now I am wide awake. It’s a chill breezy night.  I love nights like this; it's calm. My head is full of late night's thoughts, as usual, my brain is always working. And I looked over my shoulder, I can see my husband sleeping so serene next to me. 

And it actually make me smile, reminiscing all the things that we had go through to get to this stage. We had went through a LOT. On and off, on and off again, thousands of fights, months of not talking, welp, a LOT.

It just a combination of a disaster when you are in a relationship for a lot of years and top it with long distance. We had been in a relationship for 10 years, and all of it is long distance. When u had been in the same relationship for so long, u just get to know more about that person, the good and the bad. And of course there would be a lot issues arise in those 10 years, making it more challenging and we are in a long distance relationship, so sitting down face-to-face for discussion is not an option. Its different with new love or relationship, everything is still exciting, and less issues, because you're new, not much conflicts, everything is butterfly and sunshine and you are oh so in love. But when it's been so long, a lot of problems arise, and some accumulate, and we didn’t really have the time to discuss about it thoroughly, and don’t let me start about the time zone difference. When I sleep, he's awake, and when I'm awake he's asleep. But we make it throughhh, I know I know, there will still be a lot of hurdle in front of us, but surviving all this is still an accomplishment for me haha.

And we are still in a long distance relationship. This is the one time that we actually are not long distance, have to thanks the pandemic for this. We got married in January, a week after he flew back to Istanbul. He should be in Istanbul now, but theres a pandemic going in now, and hes in Malaysia since March, so its 3 months of being close to each other, that’s a record, haha. 

Being married to him for now had been a blessing to me. He is everything that I expected and much more. Hes still the same soft spoken and understanding man I knew as my boyfriend. Always supporting me no matter what, always putting me first before him. Now that I live with him, I know that I didn’t make a wrong choice what so ever in choosing him to be life partner. He is so helpful around the house, well, actually he did everything around the house hahah. He does the cooking, the cleaning, the laundry, sending off and picking me from work every day, welp, everything. All I do is say thank youuuuu, please come again >.<~

nampak sehelai rambut terus vacuum

makan pun dia sedia/beli letak depan tunggu makan aje :p

We are the polar opposite, hes calm, doesn’t really show his emotion that much and me, im a firecracker, always on the edge and waiting to explode. Hes very neat and I love to make a mess. Im always anxious, and hes so chill, it actually make me more anxioussss. The only similarity that we have is, we are both cute :3 tehee.

I am happy, truly happy and grateful for everything. I am blessed. And I hope all this happiness would be for eternity, the same as our love for each other.  He complete me, in aspect that im lacking. And I hope I complete him too. To infinity and beyond <3 nbsp="" p="">

first raya as husband & wife