eat the weekend away

so heyyyy

i love to eat eat eat 

hahaha

so this weekend me and my echa and fatin went for a food hunting

because spending your money on food is not a waste , hehe

and wow. this is the first time, i updated things up to the date. haha

because i usually kept the stories fermented for several months before i write about it.

but because this is about food and i am all hyped hype hype. weee ~

this weekend we went to penang, every body knowsss

penang is famous as the food paradise *shing shing*

seee. i tell you no bluff 

hoho

it is famous for its street food

char kuey tiow ma favorite of course. pasemboq lah, nasi kandar lah.

but i dont like nasi kandar. not my favorite. 

so we went to kedai ikan bakar in Nibong Tebal.

apa yang aku suka tentang kedai ikan bakar adalah sebab ada banyak pilihan sayur. 

and i love sambal belachaaan awmmm. 

so after that we went to komtar, because there is first avenue and prangin mall too. haha

so first stop we went to a very cute shop.

DIY ice kacang. hebak. best amat. haha

u can choose your topping yourself, as much as u want. 

there are three cup size that u can choose.

we choose the medium. dalam 8 ringgit gitu lah.

tamak nyew kamiii. 

"ok ok. apa lagi apa lagi. campak campak. sedap tak ni ? takpe takpe letak je"

hahaha

and we add ice cream, french fries and chicken popcorn. everything is delicious. :3

after thaaat, we went for sushi king

so i order shashimi 

ittadakimasu ~

 Gyuu Kinoko Don for fatin

 Gyuu Kinoko Set for echa

my tummy is happy. very happy they are break dancing. 

hahaha

and here is us being silly

hahahha

i know it is sooo stupid to take picture in the toilet

give us a chance, this is the last year we are 20. and young.

lepas ni dah tak buat dah. dah dewasa kan. hahaha

owh this is one not in the toilet. so yay. hahaha

and after that we went to KFC

 and thats all. 

last but not least 

meet my imagination friends. 

kahkahkah

kbai

hiokhiokhiok

feeling like sharing this picture that i found in facebook

because i have a weird laugh, and am happy with it

hekhekhek

pernah dulu aku gelak, lepastu pakcik yang lalu sebelah pandang aku,lepas tu cakap kat isteri dia

pakcik : ni kalau dengar malam malam ni seram jugak ni

makcik : haha

-.- yeah pakcik, i can still hear u

and banyak orang cakap aku gelak tak ikhlas 

heyyy, ikhlas okaay. 

hahaha

oklah, maybe i have to change how i laugh

berlatih mula dari hari ini

hikhik

*gelak tutup mulut*

awww

drained

hi. a lot had happened in last few months

i am exhausted 

emotionally drained

well, sikit je nak cakap

please do appreciate all the people around you

jangan fikir pasal diri sendiri je, penat tahu kita je nak pikir pasal orang

orang tak pikir pun pasal kita

ok. tarik nafasssssssssssss

huuuuh

yes. thats it. please. do think about others.

okaaayyy. thats enough sadness in a post

hahahahhahaha

owh and recently i tried to show my appreciation to all the people as much as i can

because , i miss them

i really do

i don't know why

missing random people is not my thing

hahaha

tapi yelah, i texted whole bunch of people from my secondary high school

sampai credit habis hahaha

and some of them tak tahu maryam ? maryam yang mana eh ?

hahaha. sediiiiiiiih 

sodiiiih sangaaaaaaaaat 

kahkahkah

i dont blame them, i am not that friendly dolu dolu

sekarang pun apa kurangnya. but hey, i'm trying my best here.

trying to be that person that, when i go missing, people will miss me

when i die someday, people will remember.

"owh maryam, dia baik orangnya, ramah mesra, suka membantu,moga dia ditempatkan di tempat yang terbaik"

:')

so yeah. 

kawan kawan yang mana rasa saya sombong ke ape

saya tidak sama sekali. cuma pemalu orang nya. hehehehe

just say hi to me. and i'll hello you back.

yang mana message saya tak reply.

saya takde kredit. topap asyik kena telan jeeee. sobs

takpe wassep kan adooo. 

yeah, haritu wassep dengan mak orang yuuu

dia hantar gambar anak dia bebanyak dah lah comel semua benci nak anak jugaaaak

hahaha

mak budak yang gojes awww

cuwitttt 

jadi sesape nak wassep gambar anak anak mereka pon boleh

saya sedia menonton dan merasa jealous 

kahkahkah

ok lah bai. hahaha. 

reminders

 "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower.

well thanks . once in a while i need some reminders. a wake up call for what the reason i am breathing and alive now. thanks Allah for all the people in my live. no matter what he/she had gave to me, good or bad. high or low. better or worst. 

every person that had come into our life is a treasure. we can learn one or two things from each of them.

Never blame anyone in your life.

Good people give you happiness.

Bad people give you experience.

Worst people give you a lesson

& best people give you memories.

well, cheers :)

rawr

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well that should sum up how i feel right now -..-

money wanted

yeaaah 

i need money 

haha. 

so i have started my practical years. 

currently 'working' at Pejabat Kesihatan Kerian 

yeah working without getting paid sure is 'fun' -.-

kena bayar rumah sewa , duit makan , duit duit segala

and the worst, takdapat elaun. 

kadang kadang memang tak dapat gaji lah kan praktikal, tapi dapat elaun.

well, in my case, mak bapak lah pembagi elaun,

tsk

its not that what my parent gave is not enough,its more than enough actually

tapi yelah, i want more, nak pergi jenjalan ke , shopping ke kan and for the project with mom after i finish my practical. hehe. 

so yeah, considering to work part time.

kedai makan ke, kedai kasut ke. 

the thing is, kerja praktikal pun dah dari pukul 8 sampai 5

ade lah jugak pergi tanya kedai makan, nak pekerja yang rajin lagi dedikasi tak

tapi lepas pukul 8 baru boleh start. so far, disappointing -.-

well thats the story. 

so now , sape ade kerja ? 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

T^T

klahbai

birthday cake

dulu, masa sekolah. 

mase birthday ema, i wanted to make a cake for ema. as it is a birthday so cake is like a compulsory lah kan

haha. so i made my own cake. using what i have in my locker

maka terciptalah resipe birthday 'cake' kami. 

which is very delicious okay. mihs

so when i turned 20 on 17th march this year

ema sent me all this pictures of her making me our 'cake'

so yeah, selamat belajar memasak kek bersama chef ema 

ingredients : oats, milo/powder milk/ nescafe / whatever you have in your locker , hot water, crackers
instruction : look at the picture below and go figure. malas nak tulis. zzz

tadaaah, this is the result. 

well nampak je cemtu,enak okay. hahaha

chef ema yaww

this is suppose to be my birthday present

it is soo sweet of her.

tapi malang, pecah tak sempat aku pegang -.-

hahahha

well, i love u ema so much

thanks for being my best friend

accepting me, and remembers all the little things we have go through

im so blessed to have a friend like chuuuu :')

and you're soooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet 

diabetes i :b

well ade lagi hadiah teman rakan taulan saem dan sebagainya bagi hahaha

yang pos tuuu, yang bagi by hand tuuu

yang datang penang tuuuu

thanksss semua :'D

i lapchu oll

i'll update that later. 

maybe. bile rajin. yelah yang ni pon dah bulan 10 baru update. -.-

teghuuuuk

futurama

so its 2013

i'm 20

hahahaha

well, i'm getting old. who doesn't ?

getting old makes me think of one of the things that everybody are afraid of

FUTURE

well don't bluff

everybody,every each of us is afraid of the uncertainty in it

whats waiting for us ? what will happen to us?

its like that question that almost all  motivators asked us when in high school .

" where do you see your self in the next 5 or 10 years ? "

well, i don't see me nowhere 

hahaha

yes, i cant imagine or even dream where i will be in the next 5 years or 10 years

i cant even imagine what will i do tomorrow , so yeah -.- 

well i do. i have a dream. or had a dream.

dead dream. 

as dead as me. 

aaaa im so negative. 

but i believe God had set the best story for me.

since before i can even count. every time after solat. i always make the same doa until now.

"Ya Allah Berikanlah aku yang terbaik di dunia dan akhirat"

and that i believe. 

nothing left to say

Who knows how long
I've been awake now?
The shadows on my wall don't sleep
They keep calling me
Beckoning...
Who knows what's right?
The lines keep getting thinner
My age has never made me wise
But I keep pushing on and on and on and on

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

Below my soul
I feel an engine
Collapsing as it sees the pain
If I could only shut it out
I've come too far
To see the end now
Even if my way is wrong
I keep pushing on and on and on and on

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

I keep falling, I keep falling down...
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
Hey!
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
If you could only save me
I'm drowning in the waters of my soul

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

shatters

it just so hard to get over things that u had used to

it hurts so bad

but somehow it is a prove

that i still have a soul

i want to write a long post actually

i just very am lazy 

but hey dont ever lost hope

the sky is the limit ;D

demon

When the days are cold

And the cards all fold

And the saints we see

Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail

And the ones we hail

Are the worst of all

And the blood's run stale

I want to hide the truth

I want to shelter you

But with the beast inside

There's nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

When the curtain's call

Is the last of all

When the lights fade out

All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave

And the masquerade

Will come calling out

At the mess you made

Don't want to let you down

But I am hell bound

Though this is all for you

Don't want to hide the truth

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

They say it's what you make

I say it's up to fate

It's woven in my soul

I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright

I want to save their light

I can't escape this now

Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

_____________________

ok. i am in love with this song
because it reflect me and most of us
no matter how good or pious or whatever it is ,we from the outside, or now
every body have their dark side.

i have my dark side

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

shhh
;)

mak ayah

its almost raya 

and i got a very long story to be tell

but this is not a post for that

this is for my mok and ayoh 

thanks

wuwuwuwu

because i messed up

that i had to buy the bus ticket THREE time

terbang duit RM150 -.- 

when i call ayah to ask should i or should i not buy the third ticket . ayah told me

ayah : beli laah. jange jadi materialistik. balik awal tu buleh buat ayah hepi. nati ayah masuk duit.

me : sobs

it just that. the last thing i want to do is to trouble my parent

mintak duit macam menyusahkan lah. dah la membazir beli tiket salah.

NO. bukan beli salah. tu salah pakcik jual tiket tu and thats another LONG story to be tell.

ok lah thanks ibu dan bapa 

i love u both so muchyyy~ mihs :>

weeee

hi 

:)

kbai

lalalalala ~

umrah

i just went to umrah for the last two weeks

ya Allah. it is my dream come true. :')

when mom asked me to choose, where do i want to go for my vacation

and when she suggested to go for an umrah. i quickly agreed.

yes mom, lets go!!! 

because i have this dream of going to tanah haram since i am in high school

to go to madinah and mekah

to go where our prophet had been born and raised

to walk the same ground as he did

:')
yelah, kalau boleh nak sama semua benda dengan baginda
nak sama akhlak, ilmu semua lambat lagi, sama tanah yang dipijak pon boleh lah.
tsk

and the most thrilling feeling is when i went to makam baginda rasulullah saw

ya Allah, i was crying even before i went in there

well, i tried to hide my tears, malu lah kan nangis depan mak dengan adik i. mihs

tapi ye, rase macam .

' oh mai oh mai. ni lah yang aku tunggu, aku beberapa meter je dengan kekasih Allah,yang semua orang rindu,semua selawat hari hari '

well the feeling is indescribable. you have to go there. 

bergetar jantung gituu. 

this is us before departure

 masjid nabawi 

 masjid nabawi memang serious cantik

bagi aku ni lah masjid tercantik .

and of course kami pergi ziarah jugak 

places that have history in islam, there are so many places,

some are Masjid Quba,  Masjid Qiblatain, Jabal uhud dan Bazaar kurma.

 masjid Qiblatain if im not wrong

 jabal Uhud

and after about a week in madinah

we went to mekah

:')

 masjidil haram 

masjidil haram is so huge. yelah masjid terbesar kan.

cantik sangat sangat sangat.

DAN SAYA SENTUH KAABAH ;b

wangiii keh, and i almost die trying

yelah,kita kecik je, banding dengan makcik pakcik arab tu kita macam semut merah. haha

well i feel thrilled gila, sebab yelah. 

memula tengok kaabah, dalam hati macam

" ni lah yang orang semua duk jadikan kiblat. semua SEMUA umat islam sujud arah ni. uuuuuu "

and i will definitely come here again. 

insyaAllah.

and Alhamdulillah

for everything .

thanks Allah for the chance.

seeing it . feeling it . doing it .