chances

i do believe in second chance
if one really do regret what they had done, and learn a lesson from it
promise to not do it again

but what if, the did it again
and the third chance given

and again
the fourth chance

and again
the fifth chance

when it would end?
is it going to end?
are the chances given are worthless

i get it. we are human. i am human.
we make mistakes.
bu if repeating the mistakes again,

well thats not a mistakes, thats a choice.

little talks

assalamualaikum hi heloo

sooo, i just wanted to write down whatever this is

it is holiday now as u know

there are a lot lots lots of wedding 

and i have to attend to a lot of them, i love wedding. sometimes. haha

well eating part is okay, the part yang panas duduk bawah kemah tu doesn't amuse me much haha

and some of people that i know, seniors from high school, my friend with the same age with me, yeah 21 and married, good for them, im so jealous for no reason haha :) And i find wedding at early age, like 21, yeah it is early, is good?

it is good in a way, halang maksiat kan, dating secara halal gituu. 

watching stalking one of my close friend, married at 20, and sekarang dah ade anak, masyaAllah comel pulak tu, makes me think, yuppp definitely, early ages marriage is good. hahaha. 

and another story of some people that i know, married at 21, and after a year, divorced. that is sad. really. and thats make me think, nopee definitely, early ages marriage is bad. i am such a 'lalang' hahaha. 

but, yeahh, even old couple go through divorce. yeaah, there were old couples who married for only a year and then, byeee, divorced. sooo its not about the age actually. so, yuppp marriage is so confusing. haha

and i dont know what the hell i am talking right now. hahaha

but i think if you're serious enough with somebody. NO. if you happen to like or love or adore somebody, hurry up, marry her/him. because, its not about the age, if you love somebody, do it the right way, halal way which is a marriage. biar lah bercerai ke ape ke lepas tu. but try not to. haha. i mean there are couples, in a relationship for 8 years and then break up. that is sadder. because at least the married couple for 1 year, and then divorced, they doesnt do it the wrong way, they are doing it the halal way, nak buat cemana kan jodoh tak panjang. its all god's plan. and He had plan the best for us. so no worries. pray for the best and insyaAllah the best is what we will get. 

ok. lastly, appreciate all those who loves you. family, friends. everybody. 

i love you. so appreciate me. thanks. 

:b

spring ~

boing boing

the first thing that we think when somebody said spring, of course is flowerrr

dont you?
flowers, flowers and flowers.

Malaysia is not a 4 seasons country

but to me it is four season, hot, very hot, wet, and now we got spring so yayy. hahaha

and while im doing my practical in Parit Buntar, 

ive experienced the so-called-spring 

awww. i even have some photo shoot.

because its not everyday we can see that beautiful flower blooming all over the road

it just sooo beautifulllllllll and its like im in Japan you knowwww kahkah

its like those Sakura flowers. i feel happy every time i drove through the road.
and i dont have to spend thousands to enjoy the 'sakura'. haha

see i told you its looks like sakura haha

this is soooo nice. right.

 taking pictures on the road like nobody business lalalala

jangan pandang rendah pada kami, sampai dalam longkang pun amik gambarr gituu. HAHA

too many pictures to be caption so,nope

malas nak caption. haha. 

but our pictures are like newly wed pictures. awww

haha

isnt it beautiful? it didnt need my caption.my caption is the worst in describing. haha

sooo thanks to encik saad the photographer for taking our pictures.

your pictures is sooo beautiful it makes us looks beautiful too. hiks

ok then, next post i'll update with my "cuti cuti Malaysia" mase praktikal.

surprisingly i went to a lot of interesting places in Malaysia while im doing my practical

so yeah.

and if we take some time, and enjoy our local beauty.

semua nak heboh dengki luar negara cantik, Malaysia ape kurangnya kan.

gituuu

okbye. 

flower power! 

:b 

weaknesses

everybody have their own weaknesses
well i have like one
thousand
tonnes of weaknesses

yeaah, some of it are unavoidable, some of it are habits, some of them are naturally in me
but not all weaknesses are bad.

let say, your weakness are you care too much about everybody around you that sometimes you put your own self second. well, that is a good weakness.

but it is called a weakness for a reason. say u will always get hurt. or losing your priority because putting others priority ahead of yours. or you just care too much. that is a problem. And the Biggest problem is people will take advantage on you. for sure.

but dont loose all of those good weaknesses you got, but change it to your strength. yeah, dont loose those good value you have just because other people are not. be the good you. there will be people who would appreciate you as you are. good people like you.

when people ask what is your weaknesses. no, caring about others is not a weakness. talking bad about other people is a weakness, caring is not. its your strength.

i know, sometimes we feel tired. of caring about other people too much and they doesnt even bother to care about you. all they think about their own self. tipu lah kalau aku tak pernah terlintas " buat ape pikir pasal orang yang tak pikir pun pasal kita". thats where i am wrong, i should not change the good in me, that loves to care about other people just because some of people does not care about others and only think about their self, read: selfish. but dont be like that, dont become the person you dont like.

so cheers. and always be good. to you and to others. 

the end

hep hep
just wanted to say that i finally finished with my practical and thus means the ending of all.
i do mean all. like ALL. hahaha

and now i am happy at home. laying on my bed, expecting to gain some weight and planning my so call long holiday.
sounds good huh?

i am actually planning to work. make some money.
i got a lot of things on my bucket list. things to buy. so i need that money.
soooo, i know i am too lazy to work at some fast food restaurant, with shift and stuff. bluurgh
i think i wanted to sell cookies and cakes. yeaah, i am pretty good at that.

so people, who ever wanted to buy some cookies or cakes. do contact me
please do. *wink wink*

andddddd there is of course a lot i wanted to share.
but no rush honey, because i will be partying and holidaying untill september babyy
*throw some confetti*

ok then, i have to go back to the party.

on my bed.

with my pillow.

zzzzz

no bake peanut butter cheese chocolate pudding with oreo crust dessert

ehem. what a loooong name for a dessert . hoho

no bake peanut butter cheese chocolate pudding with oreo crust dessert 

well what i love about this dessert is because it is a no bake dessert. 

due to the fact that at my rumah sewa in Parit Buntar we don't have a oven so every thing must be a no bake

soooo i search for a no bake dessert recipe in the internet and this seems like awesomeee

so here it is. how to do it Maryam style yawww. of course i improvised it, that is how i roll baybehh . 

*put shades on*

first.

heres what you need to make this dessert 

§  20 Oreo cookies, divided

§  2 tablespoons butter, softened

§  1 package (8 oz.) cream cheese, softened

§  1/2 cup peanut butter

§  1-1/2 cups confectioners' sugar, divided

§  1 carton (16 ounces) frozen whipped topping, thawed, divided

§  15-20 miniature peanut butter cups, chopped

§  1 cup cold milk

§  1 package (3.9 ounces) instant chocolate pudding mix

second. 

take the oreo and crush it. well, i just put the oreo in a plastic bag and crush it using the rolling pin. yeaah. like some serial crime murderer i hit them hard untill they all shatters muehehehe. ok. haha. and if you want to be healthy , because eating dessert is healthy, haha, u can just scrap the oreo cream out. i did that. because i love it less sweet. say no to diabetes. 

after that, melt the butter in a frying pan and toss the crushed oreo in it. this is for the crust. and then press it in a 9 inch square dish and set it aside.

next, beat the cream cheese,peanut butter and about 1/2 cup of confectioners sugar until it is all smooth. you can spread these whipped ingredient on the oreo crust you've made. 

spread it good like how i dooo hohehohe

ok you can add some peanut or what so at this stage. you know, if you love something chunky in your dessert. well i dont. hoho

next, i make some chocolate pudding. add some milk in it and wait untill it cool down and just throwwwww it in with all the other mixture we had make. hoho. 

the chocolate pudding mixture

put it in the refrigerator and wait untill it cool and put some whipped cream on it. and you can put or sprinkle some oreo on it so it look more tempting. awww.

and tadaaaaah.

i am so talented :')

hahahahhaha

well, it taste all right. i loike it. :D

can i have some too please :3 

happy new year

"Makin dewasa dan makin tua kita .moga Allah memasukkan iman di dlm hati2 kita .memberi kemudahan kepada kita dlm mengejar ketakwaan .

Anak bukan ijazah yg akan membawa kita kesurganya tp amalan yg ikhlas .kejayaan dunia yg di kecapi moga membawa kita pd tilik kasih Nya.

Ayah doakan kami dlm tahajjud mu .bimbing kami dlm amalan mu .

Selamat tahun baru" - mak saya 

mak edited the photo and make some new year wishes. awww. how sweet. hihi

yes. its already 2014 ! 

gilos cepat mase berlalu.

i am unofficially 21 .

ok. tua nya raseeee.

tengok lah betapa dewasa nya aku

muka dah matang. dah boleh kawen dah ni

ok cepat cepat

hahahaha

ok tak kelakar -.-

bai