hiokhiokhiok

feeling like sharing this picture that i found in facebook

because i have a weird laugh, and am happy with it

hekhekhek

pernah dulu aku gelak, lepastu pakcik yang lalu sebelah pandang aku,lepas tu cakap kat isteri dia

pakcik : ni kalau dengar malam malam ni seram jugak ni

makcik : haha

-.- yeah pakcik, i can still hear u

and banyak orang cakap aku gelak tak ikhlas 

heyyy, ikhlas okaay. 

hahaha

oklah, maybe i have to change how i laugh

berlatih mula dari hari ini

hikhik

*gelak tutup mulut*

awww

drained

hi. a lot had happened in last few months

i am exhausted 

emotionally drained

well, sikit je nak cakap

please do appreciate all the people around you

jangan fikir pasal diri sendiri je, penat tahu kita je nak pikir pasal orang

orang tak pikir pun pasal kita

ok. tarik nafasssssssssssss

huuuuh

yes. thats it. please. do think about others.

okaaayyy. thats enough sadness in a post

hahahahhahaha

owh and recently i tried to show my appreciation to all the people as much as i can

because , i miss them

i really do

i don't know why

missing random people is not my thing

hahaha

tapi yelah, i texted whole bunch of people from my secondary high school

sampai credit habis hahaha

and some of them tak tahu maryam ? maryam yang mana eh ?

hahaha. sediiiiiiiih 

sodiiiih sangaaaaaaaaat 

kahkahkah

i dont blame them, i am not that friendly dolu dolu

sekarang pun apa kurangnya. but hey, i'm trying my best here.

trying to be that person that, when i go missing, people will miss me

when i die someday, people will remember.

"owh maryam, dia baik orangnya, ramah mesra, suka membantu,moga dia ditempatkan di tempat yang terbaik"

:')

so yeah. 

kawan kawan yang mana rasa saya sombong ke ape

saya tidak sama sekali. cuma pemalu orang nya. hehehehe

just say hi to me. and i'll hello you back.

yang mana message saya tak reply.

saya takde kredit. topap asyik kena telan jeeee. sobs

takpe wassep kan adooo. 

yeah, haritu wassep dengan mak orang yuuu

dia hantar gambar anak dia bebanyak dah lah comel semua benci nak anak jugaaaak

hahaha

mak budak yang gojes awww

cuwitttt 

jadi sesape nak wassep gambar anak anak mereka pon boleh

saya sedia menonton dan merasa jealous 

kahkahkah

ok lah bai. hahaha. 

reminders

 "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower.

well thanks . once in a while i need some reminders. a wake up call for what the reason i am breathing and alive now. thanks Allah for all the people in my live. no matter what he/she had gave to me, good or bad. high or low. better or worst. 

every person that had come into our life is a treasure. we can learn one or two things from each of them.

Never blame anyone in your life.

Good people give you happiness.

Bad people give you experience.

Worst people give you a lesson

& best people give you memories.

well, cheers :)

rawr

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well that should sum up how i feel right now -..-

money wanted

yeaaah 

i need money 

haha. 

so i have started my practical years. 

currently 'working' at Pejabat Kesihatan Kerian 

yeah working without getting paid sure is 'fun' -.-

kena bayar rumah sewa , duit makan , duit duit segala

and the worst, takdapat elaun. 

kadang kadang memang tak dapat gaji lah kan praktikal, tapi dapat elaun.

well, in my case, mak bapak lah pembagi elaun,

tsk

its not that what my parent gave is not enough,its more than enough actually

tapi yelah, i want more, nak pergi jenjalan ke , shopping ke kan and for the project with mom after i finish my practical. hehe. 

so yeah, considering to work part time.

kedai makan ke, kedai kasut ke. 

the thing is, kerja praktikal pun dah dari pukul 8 sampai 5

ade lah jugak pergi tanya kedai makan, nak pekerja yang rajin lagi dedikasi tak

tapi lepas pukul 8 baru boleh start. so far, disappointing -.-

well thats the story. 

so now , sape ade kerja ? 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

T^T

klahbai

birthday cake

dulu, masa sekolah. 

mase birthday ema, i wanted to make a cake for ema. as it is a birthday so cake is like a compulsory lah kan

haha. so i made my own cake. using what i have in my locker

maka terciptalah resipe birthday 'cake' kami. 

which is very delicious okay. mihs

so when i turned 20 on 17th march this year

ema sent me all this pictures of her making me our 'cake'

so yeah, selamat belajar memasak kek bersama chef ema 

ingredients : oats, milo/powder milk/ nescafe / whatever you have in your locker , hot water, crackers
instruction : look at the picture below and go figure. malas nak tulis. zzz

tadaaah, this is the result. 

well nampak je cemtu,enak okay. hahaha

chef ema yaww

this is suppose to be my birthday present

it is soo sweet of her.

tapi malang, pecah tak sempat aku pegang -.-

hahahha

well, i love u ema so much

thanks for being my best friend

accepting me, and remembers all the little things we have go through

im so blessed to have a friend like chuuuu :')

and you're soooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet 

diabetes i :b

well ade lagi hadiah teman rakan taulan saem dan sebagainya bagi hahaha

yang pos tuuu, yang bagi by hand tuuu

yang datang penang tuuuu

thanksss semua :'D

i lapchu oll

i'll update that later. 

maybe. bile rajin. yelah yang ni pon dah bulan 10 baru update. -.-

teghuuuuk

futurama

so its 2013

i'm 20

hahahaha

well, i'm getting old. who doesn't ?

getting old makes me think of one of the things that everybody are afraid of

FUTURE

well don't bluff

everybody,every each of us is afraid of the uncertainty in it

whats waiting for us ? what will happen to us?

its like that question that almost all  motivators asked us when in high school .

" where do you see your self in the next 5 or 10 years ? "

well, i don't see me nowhere 

hahaha

yes, i cant imagine or even dream where i will be in the next 5 years or 10 years

i cant even imagine what will i do tomorrow , so yeah -.- 

well i do. i have a dream. or had a dream.

dead dream. 

as dead as me. 

aaaa im so negative. 

but i believe God had set the best story for me.

since before i can even count. every time after solat. i always make the same doa until now.

"Ya Allah Berikanlah aku yang terbaik di dunia dan akhirat"

and that i believe.