Have u ever been at the junction? Different path will take you
to different destinations. But u didn't know what's waiting for you at the end
of both roads. I am at that junction now.
When people say, just do it and take a leap of faith, now I can
relate. It does feel like leaping. It feels like taking a leap out of the
building, or doing a bungee jumping without a proper rope, because I don’t know
if I'm going to crash down so hard or bounce back with glee.
I know what my heart wants. But my brain is also busy doing
calculation if that’s a rational thing to do. It feels so confusing and scary. Scary for
most part, for all the things in the future that I cannot foresee. But so does
everyone, and that’s why life is a gamble. Should it be a gamble? Why can't it
be a strategized calculated investment? Hahah.
Welp, even if you've planned your life soooo perfectly, there's still no
guarantee that it will go as it planned.
Well, for now, I think it is best to live. Yeah, live in the
moment and choose what you think is the best for you and what you want at that
moment. When there's 2 things in questioned, A and B, and you wanted A, but in
the future I might regret A, because choice B might be more wiser for the
future, well just choose the one that you want at that moment, because you'll
never know if you're still alive to regret it in the future hahah. At least you
die a happy man, choosing what you really want. It’s a very poor strategy for
life, but yeah, unfortunately, I'm a gambler.
Let's roll the dice!
