i just need to jump here for a lil while,
when im stressed or have a lot on my mind, i just need to write,
these past few months had been quite stressful for me,
grown ups thinggy,
and I think, I have had enough, I just want it all to stop. once and for all.
leave all these stressful situation, and run back to my home, to my parent to find some comfort.
trust me. i want to do that still. like RIGHT NOW.
But. yes. Theres always a but. and the biggest but is.....
BUT, I am and adult.
maybe its time for me to deal and face all these grown up thinggy,
I cannot run back home crying to my parent every single time an inconvenience occur in my life,
I'm a grown up, right?
I have to face all these, its your life now Maryam, you're not a child,
yes, i have to face all these as an adult, you maryam cannot run away from problems forever,
it doesn't means you have to tolerate all the bad things thrown at you,
but, take it with grace, as a lesson, as a reminder, as a sel…
so today i'll be sharing about my holiday in Turkey,
i went to turkey for about 10 days, and my total lost was only like 4k, including the flights,
Its quite cheap laa for me, cuz its 10 days and i went to several places,
i covered istanbul for 5 days, cappadocia for 2 days, pamukkale 2 days, and 1 day in Bursa.
From Malaysia. it took around 12 hours to turkey if its a direct flight,
but i took Royal Jordanian Airlines, and i have few transits, one in Bangkok and another in Amaan.
it is tiring to have a few and long transit, but the ticket was cheap, so ai redhaa haha
being economical *cough cheapo cough* is more important than comfort hahahha
but hey, the good thing is you can explore their airport, and if your stopover is more than 8 hours, you are eligible for thier transit accommodation, so you wont be so restless waiting for the next flight
Queen Alia International Airport, Aman
its a very nice airport, and they have free wifi so theres really like no problem trans…
Sometimes I questioned my self, would i like me if i met me?
we always say things like "no more bad vibes" "cutting off toxic people" when we faced some problems with people, friends, colleague, family member etc
as if they are the problem, and its not you, they are just mean and bad people right? they dont understand us? they are bad for you.
what if, actually we're the bad vibe toxic person?
have we ever think, if the problem is really is us?
because i do, sometimes i think it is me, im the toxic person,
if i ever had met me, well maybe i would hate me,
every time i do something that i knew, that i would HATE if somebody else had done it to me,
i curse my self, like maryam what the hell,
so i dont blame people anymore if they dont like me,
because sometimes i hate myself too.
and we all should thrive to be somebody that, when you met you, you would like you.
we are all toxic to somebody. we are all bad to somebody. because
we're different, and we have …