birthday cake

dulu, masa sekolah. 

mase birthday ema, i wanted to make a cake for ema. as it is a birthday so cake is like a compulsory lah kan

haha. so i made my own cake. using what i have in my locker

maka terciptalah resipe birthday 'cake' kami. 

which is very delicious okay. mihs

so when i turned 20 on 17th march this year

ema sent me all this pictures of her making me our 'cake'

so yeah, selamat belajar memasak kek bersama chef ema 

ingredients : oats, milo/powder milk/ nescafe / whatever you have in your locker , hot water, crackers
instruction : look at the picture below and go figure. malas nak tulis. zzz

tadaaah, this is the result. 

well nampak je cemtu,enak okay. hahaha

chef ema yaww

this is suppose to be my birthday present

it is soo sweet of her.

tapi malang, pecah tak sempat aku pegang -.-

hahahha

well, i love u ema so much

thanks for being my best friend

accepting me, and remembers all the little things we have go through

im so blessed to have a friend like chuuuu :')

and you're soooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet 

diabetes i :b

well ade lagi hadiah teman rakan taulan saem dan sebagainya bagi hahaha

yang pos tuuu, yang bagi by hand tuuu

yang datang penang tuuuu

thanksss semua :'D

i lapchu oll

i'll update that later. 

maybe. bile rajin. yelah yang ni pon dah bulan 10 baru update. -.-

teghuuuuk

futurama

so its 2013

i'm 20

hahahaha

well, i'm getting old. who doesn't ?

getting old makes me think of one of the things that everybody are afraid of

FUTURE

well don't bluff

everybody,every each of us is afraid of the uncertainty in it

whats waiting for us ? what will happen to us?

its like that question that almost all  motivators asked us when in high school .

" where do you see your self in the next 5 or 10 years ? "

well, i don't see me nowhere 

hahaha

yes, i cant imagine or even dream where i will be in the next 5 years or 10 years

i cant even imagine what will i do tomorrow , so yeah -.- 

well i do. i have a dream. or had a dream.

dead dream. 

as dead as me. 

aaaa im so negative. 

but i believe God had set the best story for me.

since before i can even count. every time after solat. i always make the same doa until now.

"Ya Allah Berikanlah aku yang terbaik di dunia dan akhirat"

and that i believe. 

nothing left to say

Who knows how long
I've been awake now?
The shadows on my wall don't sleep
They keep calling me
Beckoning...
Who knows what's right?
The lines keep getting thinner
My age has never made me wise
But I keep pushing on and on and on and on

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

Below my soul
I feel an engine
Collapsing as it sees the pain
If I could only shut it out
I've come too far
To see the end now
Even if my way is wrong
I keep pushing on and on and on and on

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

I keep falling, I keep falling down...
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
Hey!
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
If you could only save me
I'm drowning in the waters of my soul

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

shatters

it just so hard to get over things that u had used to

it hurts so bad

but somehow it is a prove

that i still have a soul

i want to write a long post actually

i just very am lazy 

but hey dont ever lost hope

the sky is the limit ;D

demon

When the days are cold

And the cards all fold

And the saints we see

Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail

And the ones we hail

Are the worst of all

And the blood's run stale

I want to hide the truth

I want to shelter you

But with the beast inside

There's nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

When the curtain's call

Is the last of all

When the lights fade out

All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave

And the masquerade

Will come calling out

At the mess you made

Don't want to let you down

But I am hell bound

Though this is all for you

Don't want to hide the truth

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

They say it's what you make

I say it's up to fate

It's woven in my soul

I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright

I want to save their light

I can't escape this now

Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

It's where my demons hide

_____________________

ok. i am in love with this song
because it reflect me and most of us
no matter how good or pious or whatever it is ,we from the outside, or now
every body have their dark side.

i have my dark side

Don't get too close

It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

shhh
;)

mak ayah

its almost raya 

and i got a very long story to be tell

but this is not a post for that

this is for my mok and ayoh 

thanks

wuwuwuwu

because i messed up

that i had to buy the bus ticket THREE time

terbang duit RM150 -.- 

when i call ayah to ask should i or should i not buy the third ticket . ayah told me

ayah : beli laah. jange jadi materialistik. balik awal tu buleh buat ayah hepi. nati ayah masuk duit.

me : sobs

it just that. the last thing i want to do is to trouble my parent

mintak duit macam menyusahkan lah. dah la membazir beli tiket salah.

NO. bukan beli salah. tu salah pakcik jual tiket tu and thats another LONG story to be tell.

ok lah thanks ibu dan bapa 

i love u both so muchyyy~ mihs :>

weeee

hi 

:)

kbai

lalalalala ~