Sunday, December 29, 2013

eat the weekend away

so heyyyy
i love to eat eat eat 
hahaha

so this weekend me and my echa and fatin went for a food hunting
because spending your money on food is not a waste , hehe

and wow. this is the first time, i updated things up to the date. haha
because i usually kept the stories fermented for several months before i write about it.
but because this is about food and i am all hyped hype hype. weee ~

this weekend we went to penang, every body knowsss
penang is famous as the food paradise *shing shing*


seee. i tell you no bluff 
hoho

it is famous for its street food
char kuey tiow ma favorite of course. pasemboq lah, nasi kandar lah.

but i dont like nasi kandar. not my favorite. 
so we went to kedai ikan bakar in Nibong Tebal.
apa yang aku suka tentang kedai ikan bakar adalah sebab ada banyak pilihan sayur. 
and i love sambal belachaaan awmmm. 




so after that we went to komtar, because there is first avenue and prangin mall too. haha

so first stop we went to a very cute shop.
DIY ice kacang. hebak. best amat. haha
u can choose your topping yourself, as much as u want. 
there are three cup size that u can choose.
we choose the medium. dalam 8 ringgit gitu lah.


tamak nyew kamiii. 

"ok ok. apa lagi apa lagi. campak campak. sedap tak ni ? takpe takpe letak je"



hahaha
and we add ice cream, french fries and chicken popcorn. everything is delicious. :3

after thaaat, we went for sushi king

so i order shashimi 

ittadakimasu ~



 Gyuu Kinoko Don for fatin
 Gyuu Kinoko Set for echa

my tummy is happy. very happy they are break dancing. 
hahaha

and here is us being silly
hahahha
i know it is sooo stupid to take picture in the toilet
give us a chance, this is the last year we are 20. and young.
lepas ni dah tak buat dah. dah dewasa kan. hahaha






owh this is one not in the toilet. so yay. hahaha

and after that we went to KFC
 and thats all. 

last but not least 


meet my imagination friends. 
kahkahkah

kbai

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

hiokhiokhiok




feeling like sharing this picture that i found in facebook

because i have a weird laugh, and am happy with it
hekhekhek

pernah dulu aku gelak, lepastu pakcik yang lalu sebelah pandang aku,lepas tu cakap kat isteri dia

pakcik : ni kalau dengar malam malam ni seram jugak ni
makcik : haha

-.- yeah pakcik, i can still hear u

and banyak orang cakap aku gelak tak ikhlas 
heyyy, ikhlas okaay. 
hahaha

oklah, maybe i have to change how i laugh
berlatih mula dari hari ini
hikhik

*gelak tutup mulut*

awww

Thursday, November 28, 2013

drained

hi. a lot had happened in last few months
i am exhausted 
emotionally drained

well, sikit je nak cakap
please do appreciate all the people around you
jangan fikir pasal diri sendiri je, penat tahu kita je nak pikir pasal orang
orang tak pikir pun pasal kita
ok. tarik nafasssssssssssss

huuuuh

yes. thats it. please. do think about others.

okaaayyy. thats enough sadness in a post
hahahahhahaha

owh and recently i tried to show my appreciation to all the people as much as i can
because , i miss them
i really do
i don't know why
missing random people is not my thing
hahaha

tapi yelah, i texted whole bunch of people from my secondary high school
sampai credit habis hahaha
and some of them tak tahu maryam ? maryam yang mana eh ?
hahaha. sediiiiiiiih 
sodiiiih sangaaaaaaaaat 
kahkahkah

i dont blame them, i am not that friendly dolu dolu
sekarang pun apa kurangnya. but hey, i'm trying my best here.
trying to be that person that, when i go missing, people will miss me
when i die someday, people will remember.
"owh maryam, dia baik orangnya, ramah mesra, suka membantu,moga dia ditempatkan di tempat yang terbaik"
:')

so yeah. 
kawan kawan yang mana rasa saya sombong ke ape
saya tidak sama sekali. cuma pemalu orang nya. hehehehe
just say hi to me. and i'll hello you back.

yang mana message saya tak reply.
saya takde kredit. topap asyik kena telan jeeee. sobs
takpe wassep kan adooo. 

yeah, haritu wassep dengan mak orang yuuu
dia hantar gambar anak dia bebanyak dah lah comel semua benci nak anak jugaaaak
hahaha

mak budak yang gojes awww

cuwitttt 
jadi sesape nak wassep gambar anak anak mereka pon boleh
saya sedia menonton dan merasa jealous 
kahkahkah

ok lah bai. hahaha. 





Monday, November 11, 2013

reminders


 "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower.



well thanks . once in a while i need some reminders. a wake up call for what the reason i am breathing and alive now. thanks Allah for all the people in my live. no matter what he/she had gave to me, good or bad. high or low. better or worst. 

every person that had come into our life is a treasure. we can learn one or two things from each of them.

Never blame anyone in your life.
Good people give you happiness.
Bad people give you experience.
Worst people give you a lesson
& best people give you memories.

well, cheers :)

Sunday, November 03, 2013

rawr

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well that should sum up how i feel right now -..-

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

money wanted

yeaaah 
i need money 
haha. 

so i have started my practical years. 
currently 'working' at Pejabat Kesihatan Kerian 

yeah working without getting paid sure is 'fun' -.-
kena bayar rumah sewa , duit makan , duit duit segala
and the worst, takdapat elaun. 
kadang kadang memang tak dapat gaji lah kan praktikal, tapi dapat elaun.
well, in my case, mak bapak lah pembagi elaun,
tsk

its not that what my parent gave is not enough,its more than enough actually
tapi yelah, i want more, nak pergi jenjalan ke , shopping ke kan and for the project with mom after i finish my practical. hehe. 

so yeah, considering to work part time.
kedai makan ke, kedai kasut ke. 
the thing is, kerja praktikal pun dah dari pukul 8 sampai 5

ade lah jugak pergi tanya kedai makan, nak pekerja yang rajin lagi dedikasi tak
tapi lepas pukul 8 baru boleh start. so far, disappointing -.-

well thats the story. 

so now , sape ade kerja ? 
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

T^T

klahbai

Sunday, October 20, 2013

birthday cake


dulu, masa sekolah. 
mase birthday ema, i wanted to make a cake for ema. as it is a birthday so cake is like a compulsory lah kan
haha. so i made my own cake. using what i have in my locker
maka terciptalah resipe birthday 'cake' kami. 
which is very delicious okay. mihs

so when i turned 20 on 17th march this year
ema sent me all this pictures of her making me our 'cake'
so yeah, selamat belajar memasak kek bersama chef ema 


ingredients : oats, milo/powder milk/ nescafe / whatever you have in your locker , hot water, crackers
instruction : look at the picture below and go figure. malas nak tulis. zzz








tadaaah, this is the result. 
well nampak je cemtu,enak okay. hahaha


chef ema yaww



this is suppose to be my birthday present
it is soo sweet of her.
tapi malang, pecah tak sempat aku pegang -.-
hahahha

well, i love u ema so much
thanks for being my best friend
accepting me, and remembers all the little things we have go through
im so blessed to have a friend like chuuuu :')



and you're soooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet 
diabetes i :b




well ade lagi hadiah teman rakan taulan saem dan sebagainya bagi hahaha
yang pos tuuu, yang bagi by hand tuuu
yang datang penang tuuuu
thanksss semua :'D
i lapchu oll
i'll update that later. 
maybe. bile rajin. yelah yang ni pon dah bulan 10 baru update. -.-
teghuuuuk




Saturday, October 05, 2013

futurama

so its 2013
i'm 20
hahahaha

well, i'm getting old. who doesn't ?

getting old makes me think of one of the things that everybody are afraid of
FUTURE

well don't bluff
everybody,every each of us is afraid of the uncertainty in it
whats waiting for us ? what will happen to us?

its like that question that almost all  motivators asked us when in high school .

" where do you see your self in the next 5 or 10 years ? "

well, i don't see me nowhere 
hahaha
yes, i cant imagine or even dream where i will be in the next 5 years or 10 years
i cant even imagine what will i do tomorrow , so yeah -.- 

well i do. i have a dream. or had a dream.
dead dream. 
as dead as me. 

aaaa im so negative. 

but i believe God had set the best story for me.
since before i can even count. every time after solat. i always make the same doa until now.

"Ya Allah Berikanlah aku yang terbaik di dunia dan akhirat"


and that i believe. 

Saturday, September 14, 2013

nothing left to say

Who knows how long
I've been awake now?
The shadows on my wall don't sleep
They keep calling me
Beckoning...
Who knows what's right?
The lines keep getting thinner
My age has never made me wise
But I keep pushing on and on and on and on

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

Below my soul
I feel an engine
Collapsing as it sees the pain
If I could only shut it out
I've come too far
To see the end now
Even if my way is wrong
I keep pushing on and on and on and on

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

I keep falling, I keep falling down...
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
Hey!
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
I keep falling, I keep falling down...
If you could only save me
I'm drowning in the waters of my soul

There's nothing left to say now...
I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...

Thursday, August 29, 2013

shatters

it just so hard to get over things that u had used to

it hurts so bad

but somehow it is a prove

that i still have a soul



i want to write a long post actually
i just very am lazy 

but hey dont ever lost hope
the sky is the limit ;D


Friday, August 09, 2013

demon

When the days are cold

And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale



I want to hide the truth
I want to shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

When the curtain's call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made

Don't want to let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't want to hide the truth
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
Your eyes, they shine so bright
I want to save their light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide


_____________________

ok. i am in love with this song
because it reflect me and most of us
no matter how good or pious or whatever it is ,we from the outside, or now
every body have their dark side.

i have my dark side

Don't get too close
It's dark inside

It's where my demons hide

shhh
;)

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

mak ayah

its almost raya 
and i got a very long story to be tell
but this is not a post for that
this is for my mok and ayoh 
thanks

wuwuwuwu
because i messed up
that i had to buy the bus ticket THREE time
terbang duit RM150 -.- 

when i call ayah to ask should i or should i not buy the third ticket . ayah told me

ayah : beli laah. jange jadi materialistik. balik awal tu buleh buat ayah hepi. nati ayah masuk duit.
me : sobs

it just that. the last thing i want to do is to trouble my parent
mintak duit macam menyusahkan lah. dah la membazir beli tiket salah.
NO. bukan beli salah. tu salah pakcik jual tiket tu and thats another LONG story to be tell.






ok lah thanks ibu dan bapa 
i love u both so muchyyy~ mihs :>

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

umrah

i just went to umrah for the last two weeks
ya Allah. it is my dream come true. :')

when mom asked me to choose, where do i want to go for my vacation
and when she suggested to go for an umrah. i quickly agreed.
yes mom, lets go!!! 

because i have this dream of going to tanah haram since i am in high school
to go to madinah and mekah
to go where our prophet had been born and raised
to walk the same ground as he did
:')
yelah, kalau boleh nak sama semua benda dengan baginda
nak sama akhlak, ilmu semua lambat lagi, sama tanah yang dipijak pon boleh lah.
tsk


and the most thrilling feeling is when i went to makam baginda rasulullah saw
ya Allah, i was crying even before i went in there
well, i tried to hide my tears, malu lah kan nangis depan mak dengan adik i. mihs
tapi ye, rase macam .
' oh mai oh mai. ni lah yang aku tunggu, aku beberapa meter je dengan kekasih Allah,yang semua orang rindu,semua selawat hari hari '
well the feeling is indescribable. you have to go there. 
bergetar jantung gituu. 

this is us before departure


 masjid nabawi 








 masjid nabawi memang serious cantik
bagi aku ni lah masjid tercantik .

and of course kami pergi ziarah jugak 
places that have history in islam, there are so many places,
some are Masjid Quba,  Masjid Qiblatain, Jabal uhud dan Bazaar kurma.


 masjid Qiblatain if im not wrong


 jabal Uhud






and after about a week in madinah
we went to mekah



:')










 masjidil haram 




masjidil haram is so huge. yelah masjid terbesar kan.
cantik sangat sangat sangat.

DAN SAYA SENTUH KAABAH ;b
wangiii keh, and i almost die trying
yelah,kita kecik je, banding dengan makcik pakcik arab tu kita macam semut merah. haha
well i feel thrilled gila, sebab yelah. 
memula tengok kaabah, dalam hati macam
" ni lah yang orang semua duk jadikan kiblat. semua SEMUA umat islam sujud arah ni. uuuuuu "


and i will definitely come here again. 
insyaAllah.

and Alhamdulillah
for everything .

thanks Allah for the chance.
seeing it . feeling it . doing it .